Sunday, November 23, 2014

What you've been wondering about Rachel.

I think some people have been aware that I have had some work uncertainty.  That post was back in June, while I still didn't really know what was going to happen with me.  I was working a ton as essentially the acting HR Director and generally handling the transition on the end of the former company and also the new company.  I wasn't sure what they were going to do, but my corporate level position that I had recently been put into didn't have a clear transfer into the new company.Finally, after two months of craziness and trying to both prove myself to the new managers and still continue doing all the work that needs done for the prior owners for whom I was still contracted, the new managers pulled me in and let me know that my position had been eliminated and that I would be laid off after the end of the year.  I didn't know what the final date of work would be, but that was the general idea.  I was semi-crushed, but it also wasn't totally unexpected.  There was some solace in that I knew it wasn't personal.  It is nice to feel pretty confident in my abilities and skills and knowledge, and know that there wasn't anything really lacking that was causing the change.  I didn't do anything wrong.  But even with that knowledge, losing your job isn't really something to put you in a great mood, if you know what I mean.  They did tell me I could go back to working from home about three days a week.  It was a little more than I was previously doing before the transition, but way more than I had been doing since mid-May when we started working through the transition.  They actually encouraged me to volunteer to work more days in the office than that in order to better solidify my working relationship with the new management (they hired a new HR Director at the end of August and Assistant HR Director at the end of September).  I am a good employee and would always do the best for the company, even with the certainty of losing the job in four months, but I politely declined to work overtime to improve a temporary working relationship.  Other than assisting some with the transition of the new HR Director and covering some shifts as acting HR Director when she wasn't able to do it, I have been working mostly just those two days in the office and the rest from home.  It has been wonderful to resume that flex schedule, because I have missed being home with my kids during the week.
After I got the news and started processing, the main question was "what now?"  I didn't know exactly what would be the next move.  The main problem for me is that my working from home on a more flexible schedule isn't really a compromising point for me.  It's what I enjoy doing and want to do, even though it obviously isn't for everyone.  However, since there are lots of people out there who don't have the same requirements, I knew it would be difficult to find something out in the big world.  Greg and I talked about my leaving the work arena for now, or going back to school, or applying and seeing what I could find, or even getting a full time job where I couldn't do the flex schedule.  But, I couldn't even bring myself to look for anything.  I was sort of ostrich-ing it, and ignoring the looming deadline of "sometime after the end of the year."  While I've been debating what to do, and trying to ignore the inevitable, a few other changes have been happening around the property, and just a couple weeks ago I got a call from the owner of the former company.  It's a little complicated and boring, but essentially he is still the owner of the old company, but he is no longer the manager, and he is a part of a joint venture that is renovating the property.  So, my current employer is technically the new manager of the hotel.  But, because he retains some ownership rights as part of the joint venture, he is able to get a few privileges.  He called me a couple of weeks ago to let me know that one of those privileges is the ability to have one employee who works for him, but is employed by the manager of the hotel.  In my case, the perk of that is that I would be able to maintain benefits (including the health insurance for my whole family), and I would still have a job.  I thought about it for a few days before going back to him and accepting.  There will be a couple of changes in job duties from my current job; it will actually look more like the job I originally accepted back in May, except that with no employees, there are a lot of things that will be lessened.  For example, I deal with any litigation, but much of our liability ended back in May, so after the statute of limitations finishes up (still a while longer), there won't likely be much to do there.  I will continue to maintain the corporation, and handle the transitional items that are still coming up.  Best of all, I will do 4-5 days a week of this work from home!  I will be in the office probably 1 day a week most weeks, and more or less as fitting.  This isn't exactly what I was expecting, and I would have not believed you if you had said a year ago, or even six months ago that this would be the direction my career would go in, but it seems to be right for right now, and I will keep on going until it isn't anymore!  It has been a really stressful few months with figuring out what is going on, so I appreciate everyone's nice thoughts and words.  =)
Also new with me: I suddenly have turned into one of those people who is extremely busy.  I don't know when this happened.  The other day I was trying to coordinate a meet up with some friends and I came up with one approximately 90-minute window where our schedules collided in a whole week.  (Obviously partially due to the friends' schedules, but still!)  I am serving on the PTA for Charlie's school, which isn't a ton of work, but it does take a little bit of time each month, and I am also the room parent for Charlie's classroom, which again isn't a lot of work, but it is some.  Between those responsibilities, work, and the fact that three children are never all healthy or napping at the same time, it seems like I always have something going on.  I am always headed somewhere.  But I have talked to several people about this, and I really feel strongly that my life is actually more calm with three children than it was with 2.  This is for several reasons, in my opinion.  One significant one is that Felicity was born just weeks before Greg started law school, and he was really so busy that I felt like I was doing a lot of the home stuff alone.  But, I really think it's me more than anything.  When I had one child, I could really keep things together.  When I had two, I couldn't really, but it was just out of reach.  I was so close to having my stuff together that I felt like if I just worked a little harder, maybe I actually would have it together.  So, I was always trying to do more and do a better job, and I never felt like I was succeeding.  When I had my third (and it is not a hard and fast rule of 3rd children by any means, in my case I think it is a combined effort of the number 3 and also of the first and second children starting to get older and have more going on, homework, lessons, carpool, etc), my life became so crazy that I realized that certain things (read: dishes) were never going to be perfect.  I was just going to be able to do what I could and it was going to have to be enough.  Feeling like enough (even with everything I lack, which is a lot) has been a seriously life changing experience for me.  I highly recommend it to everyone.  So, basically, I am wildly busy and my life feels pretty chaotic at times, but I feel really happy about everything.  Which is great.
At church I am keeping busy with a couple responsibilities.  I have taught the 5-6 year old kids for the last couple of years, and this year that has included Charlie, which has been (mostly) fun.  A few months ago, I was given the additional responsibility of media relations work (so far has included getting the word out on community and other events we are participating in, and I think the scope will grow and change as I sort of figure out what I am doing).  Then, one month ago, they released Greg and me from teaching the 5-6 year olds, and they are having me be the primary chorister, where I lead singing time.  There are two sets of primary classes: one all of the kids ages 3-7 and the other all the kids ages 8-12.  This is a bigger group than the class I was previously teaching, of course, because it includes all the other age children.  I still get to see Charlie in the bigger class, and now I teach Felicity as well, for singing time.  There is a SERIOUS learning curve for this calling (ie, how to prepare a lesson that will appeal to/maintain the attention of 3 year olds and 7 year olds simultaneously, and how to have that same lesson translate into a substantially similar one that will appeal to 8 year olds and 12 year olds simultaneously), and I am still working through how it's done and how I do it, but it is mostly fun.

1 comment:

*Janae* said...

Rachel - you are fabulous! I am glad that things are working out for your career! Remember the Lord is mindful of all that you are doing, so in your most stressed out moment, everything is in His timing! It is refreshing to see how blessed you are! Stay happy (and don't go crazy with how busy you are!)! Miss you.